Welcome to my silly life

Bring your foot up 

This was something that was constantly being told to me while I learnt to walk again. How I miss those days of just putting one foot in front of the other.It does get easier and I don't constantly have to keep reminding myself of this but it still requires concentration. 

I am writing this today because after tripping over twice this morning I have forced myself to put my foot up for a few hours. It, along with my brain is obviously in need of a rest today. I can't complain really. It does very well. 

Everything has its place

I have been very busy in the flat this week. I'm finally at a point where I have the energy to do 

my daily cleaning plus tackle a project (mainly unpacking still) each day. For so long I have had to choose between the two which has been hard because I need everything in the right place. This is where I find it hard as often people will say I know how you feel, I do too but I never used to be like this so I am not sure if it is the only way my brain can cope or if I have changed personality. I just have to roll with it I suppose. I'm happy so that is the main thing.



Building Dreams

I managed to tick Legoland off the list.   We had a lovely time and as we managed to get Annual Passes will be back again and have a list of things I would like to go on once I am stronger. I did manage to go on a few rides and enjoyed watching others. 

Cerys made me go on this ride lots of times because it made her laugh as I literally could not stop laughing each time we went on it. I found it uncomfortable but so much fun and I can't say no to that girl :) 

Legoland is lovely and I am looking forward to going back there again one day. 

Super Proud of Super Me

I am one year, 4 months post stroke and today I finally (I say finally as those that know me will know that I have been waiting on this moment for so long. ) I started my Gym programme.

While laying in a hospital bed with a paralysed left side, I can still remember peoples faces when I announced that I would walk again. I know, it was awkward, nobody wanted to get my hopes up too much in case it didn't happen. I had even given myself a date that I wanted to achieve this goal. Looking back I don't know if that was bravery, naivety or stupidity but I did it.  Although the original goal was to walk with a stick up to my daughters Sports s Day. I didn't quite manage this but I had started to walk. This was probably my first example of seeing how much my life was about to change and how much of a fight I still had ahead.

I was walking short distances but I was advised that if I went to the school I would need to see if I could get in and out of a car, then there was the issue of how far could I walk, roads, pavements, other pedestrians. I was so scared anyway by this point plus a wheelchair was mentioned. That was not part of my plan. I wanted to walk in. I also didn't feel I was strong enough to have a few hours out of hospital only to have to go back there again.

So today, I walked to the Gym by myself. I have been on the Treadmill, Bike and did some arm strengthening It felt amazing and I am looking forward to next week already.

I have had a unofficial goal which is to one day run.  I am not brave/naive/stupid enough to set a date but today I am making it a official goal -

One day I will run